This year, it feels like my home has seen more construction than in the previous nine years combined.
The irony is, as a planner, these are things that I would have planned and thought through, but as the opportunities presented themselves, I jumped on them – and, view them as God knowing the desires of my heart.
One construction was outdoors and this latest one was indoors.
As I sat and listened to the work being done, I got overwhelmed with emotions. It didn’t just feel like my kitchen having work done, it felt like it was me that God was reconstructing. As I heard (and felt) the seemingly intense banging, I imagined it was work that was being done in and on me.
I knew the results would be beautiful, and yet it felt hard and inconvenient.
While the worker was diligent with how he worked, there were some things that just needed to be done to prepare the space. He tidied up as he went along, but there were times that he had to leave areas undone as we waited to complete the next step.
I’ve imagined that it’s work being done on me. There are times that it feels like a gaping hole has been left in me, while the process continues in other areas. It’s been messy and even a bit unexpected and inconvenient.
Thankfully, as I’m sitting writing in this moment, the work is done, and it is GORGEOUS. The worker had painstakingly taken his time. He made sure everything was done properly, in a neat and tidy fashion. Even when I insisted that I could help, he declined my help, because he knew the standard that he was working to.
I can write this same paragraph about myself. I don’t know if the Worker is done on me yet, but, I know the end result is far more beautiful than when the Worker on my human heart started. He has painstakingly taken His time to work. I may not have always understood the work that was being done, but I know, it will be GORGEOUS when He is done. And, there will be fruit.. Lots of them.
Dear Heavenly Father, construction is so hard. Whether it’s construction that is happening in our homes or construction that is happening in our minds and soul. Father, would you help us so that we don’t get too frustrated in the midst of it, and that you bring it to completion, allowing You to finish the work you have started?