I have a tendency to frustrate myself. It’s for no other reason, that I try to think about everything (some of which I have absolutely no control), but I think and ponder about them anyway. God is trying to teach me that some of these things are not my problem and I should trust Him.
Yesterday was one such day. I woke up in one of my moods. I did my usual devotion. Spoke with my friend and explained what was going on. She understands me quite well, and we’ve been on similar journeys. She provided her suggestions. I proceeded to go to the gym, and then work. I was still only ‘so so’. As I sat at my desk to start working, the thought popped into my head that I should read the proverbs 31 daily broadcast. It only takes about 1 minute to read, but there’s usually some snippet of wisdom there for me. Before I could open my browser, I heard an email come in. I checked and it was an email from Proverbs31 thanking me for agreeing to be a prayer partner. Hhhmmm.. I think you’re mistaken – I definitely didn’t agree to this. I went ahead and still checked the website. Today’s snippet was on the author spinning her mental wheels with all the tasks she needed to do, and frustrating herself. Then, she heard God remind her that the way she was going about it was not going to help, and that she needed to bring it to Him. Two prayer reminders/requests in under a minute.
I needed some quiet space. I stepped away to talk to God. It was obvious He wanted me to bring my issues to Him. As I was done praying, the thought came to me, ‘while you are still asking, I will answer.’ I smiled as I’ve experienced that many times before.
Sure enough, when I got back to my desk, there was another email from another friend. I believe it had God’s instruction and directions for me written all over it.
I’m human, so I keep going to God with the same set of questions. Sometimes I wonder if He gets frustrated with me that I’m always asking the same questions. I’m finding out that He doesn’t. Instead, He actually wants me to bring my cares and concerns to Him in prayer. Yes, He knows my needs and wants, but let’s discuss it. He wants me to tell them to Him. He wants me to stop long enough to listen to hear His response. He tells me to cast my cares on Him, because He cares. He’s never too busy. Wow. What a friend and father!
Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for the privilege of always being able to come to you in prayer. Help us to not be afraid or get tired of coming to you with the same questions. Your ways are not our ways and you don’t get annoyed when we ask the same questions over and over, with sincerity. Help us to sit still long enough to hear your response and how you are continually working on our behalf.