Have you ever wondered if something is wrong with you?
Hear me out…
This season has been filled with so many things. Good, not so good and in between.
In the midst of what feels like a ‘not so good’ period, one more very weighty thing is added. Already thinking of all the other things going on and one more thing is added.
As I stood in the shower thinking of all of life’s happenings, I started laughing out loud. I’m standing there and laughing out loud, and then my laughter turns into tears… Tears of complete and utter gratitude.
My situation had not changed in the moment. The news I had been given had not magically changed into more positive news. But, my perspective and God’s reminder had changed.
I contemplated where I stood. Feet firmly planted, as I felt my feet connected to the ground (I’ve been intentionally practicing to be mindful when doing things that my mind would ordinarily wander). Even with all happening in that moment, I was grounded, and filled with joy and gratitude.
Friends, what situation is causing you to wonder ‘when will this change?’
Change may or may not come soon. But.. can you look at your situation with a renewed perspective? Being reminded that God is still in control?
As I laughed hysterically, and then started crying, I knew that nothing was seriously wrong with me. This season was the result of the work that God had been doing in my life for many years: to be able to experience peace, joy and hope. Even in the midst of chaos.
And I finally understand the verse that came to mind a few years ago when God called me to do something beyond my wildest dreams ‘She can laugh without fear of the future’.
Dear Heavenly Father, I may not have all that I want, but I am grateful that I have all that I need. Thank you for your reminders of how you have carried me through these seasons, and the reminder that you will continue to be with me.