For the last two weeks or so, I’ve been waking up around 2am and not being able to fall back asleep until closer to 4am. You can imagine how frustrating that is for someone who deems sleep to be one of their closest friends.
In a conversation with a business partner, she said something that jogged my memory. And it took me to my early days of just starting to write. When God wanted my attention, I was awaken around 2am. I would have these thoughts in my head that I just had to get out in the notes section of my phone.
This time, it has been different. No urgent messages to write. Just waking up at the same time each morning for roughly the same amount of time. I would ask God what He wanted me to do – but seemingly silence, and with the season change, not wanting to get out of bed.
After my conversation, I determined that I was going to actually get out of bed if I was up longer than 20 minutes and go read my Bible.
On one such occasion, I read from a few different passages. Then went back to bed and was asleep within minutes. When I woke the next morning and I was reading through my devotions, the scriptures mentioned two of the exact places that I had read in the wee hours of the morning. As a math person, I like to think of probabilities. What is the probability that there are 1408 pages in my bible, and I was on just the page that I would later encounter in my devotion – in two completely different places?
I started wondering how many blessings I had been missing in the previous weeks because I didn’t want to get out of bed. Ironically, the quicker I got up and ‘listened’, the quicker I fell back to sleep.
Often times we want to hear from God, and we’re asking the questions. But we’re not going to the place where He speaks clearly. I pray I will remember that the next time I wake up in the wee hours of the morning for an extended amount of time.
Dear Heavenly Father, thank you that you still speak. Thank you that you speak clearly through repetition for emphasis. Father, I ask that we will listen, and be obedient to your voice.
