Those were the two headline words in my journal recently.
When I journal at a time that I don’t normally, I typically write the time. I want to remember the thought process when I look back a few days or many years later. This one has a time stamp of 2:15am – which means I’d woken up and gotten out of bed.
I often wonder how I can have such opposing emotions.
On one hand, I’m incredibly grateful at how God has chosen to move in many areas of my life. There’s a peace and joy that I cannot explain.
On the other hand, there’s a sense of frustration at the way God has chosen to answer (or not) depending on how I choose to view the situation in other areas of my life.
Friends, can I tell you that I think it’s ok to feel this way? We are humans, with a wide range of emotions and we can choose to acknowledge what we are feeling and be intentional about how we proceed.
As I’m writing this, a smile is spreading across my face. I’m reminded that if He can move so mightily in one area of my life, He can do the same in other parts.
Two verses comes to mind:
Isaiah 60:22b ‘I am the Lord; in its time I will do this swiftly’
Galatians 6:9 ‘Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up’
Friends, it’s ok to feel the emotions you are – that is a gift. Choose to acknowledge them and ask God how to direct your path so that you will know how to proceed.
Dear Heavenly Father, I’m so filled with gratitude, that even through my frustrations you bring to mind things you have said before. Help me to seek you and to seek your wisdom for when things are beyond my control, knowing I can trust you no matter what it looks like.
